the private blog.

the many faces of a completely and totally unmotivated carissa.

i don’t want to write this research paper about the international theories that best put the conflict in darfur, sudan, into perspective.
i don’t want to explain how, from a realist perspective, china, russia, and neighboring arab countries saw justification in allowing atrocities in darfur to happen.
i don’t want to read more about the marxist explanation of elitist exploitation allowing the unending plight of developing countries.
i don’t want to be constantly in and out of complete apathy and sharp anxiety and yearning but always always always unfulfilled passion.

there’s so much that needs to be done and so much i want to do, but in the end my work ethic just refuses to work with my ever-churning brain.

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